No, it's ME silly! *dances* It's one I've been wanting for ever and ever and ever but it was $20 and Some people don't have that kind of money. *Points at self* Anyway. It's called Dragonology, the Complete Book of Dragons. Supposedly it's by this guy named Dr. Ernest Drake in 1895. It says that only 100 copies of the bookw ere printed, and recently a copy was found ansd they remade it into what I now own. But the company that published it was unable to confirm that thay guy even existed, so they don't know who wrote it. It is 30 pages long with all kinds of flaps and features (Including three specimns of textured "dragon scales" and some dragon dust) describing the existing dragons, where they live, how they live, what they are like, etc. It's written as if they are real, and the illustrations are beautiful! I'll scan some in and put them below. They also have some dragon related spells.. like how to get them to protect you, how to use dragon dust to disappear, how to tame one, how to lame one, and how to use a dragon talisman to get one wish. I'm also going to scan a little note that came inside an envalope withit he first page. I love my book!

The note: http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v669/EvilSeedlet/note.jpg

The random picture: http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v669/EvilSeedlet/dragon1.jpg

Now, you probably aren't asking yourself: How did Phillipa come across $20?

But I'll answer that anyway. I worked at Filipo's. Yay! It's not actually a real job or anything but it may become that way if Kereen has her way >.> I just sorta helped out, did whatever the waitresses told me. I've done it once before too, but this time I learned a ton of stuff more. And I folded napkins. Sweet Christ did I fold napkins. But it was fun, and I came home smelling like an itallian restaurant. Yay for Filipo's! *huggles Alex for taking her there*

Everyone seems to think that Alex is the reason I've been acting the way I have. He is NOT. Everyhting that I have said and done I have thought of and wanted to do of my own accord. So if anyone wants to drive out the wedge or remove the problem, they had better look for me.

I am still the same person you all knew and loved, I just finally decided to stand up for MYSELF, like everyone keeps telling me I should. I still love Alex more than ever, and that will never stop. He has never once tried to control me, he's only tried to help me make my life better. I am in control of my own life, I now just have a best friend to support and love me while I go about trying to live it.

Wednesday night I was on the phone with Alex and mentioned I had an itch to hear the song "If You're Gone" by Matchbox 20.. he was on his computer so he downloaded it, then played it through the phone. I was so weirdly overwhelmed that I nearly cried. I love him so much. *sigh of happy*